Laundry

I was going to write a post yesterday, Saturday, but that didn’t happen. I’m a bit slow these days. Then I was going to write something early this morning but well, here it is, almost seven in the evening and I am just now getting to it. Oh well!

This is actually not about laundry. Not completely. It’s sort of a laundry list of things going on. It’s the kind of post I might write for a Weekend Coffee Share. I’m really missing those and I’ve lost some of the people that participated in those. I guess I will have to try to go back through all of my Weekend Coffee Share posts and see who commented and find their blogs because I miss them!

I’m not going to say too much about that unthinkable thing that happen in Las Vegas a week ago today but I will mention it because I think it has a lot to do with how I am feeling these days. I’m sure a lot of you have felt the oppression of a world gone crazy this week and of how our politicians in America seem to be ignoring what they shouldn’t and making hay out of what they should ignore. Incredible. But then again, it seems that the incredible is more and more the standard in this world.

I think it is time to bring out my light spectrum light bulbs because I can feel the depression of the seasonal changes coming on. It’s time. And it’s time to take my multivitamins in hopes that my energy level will improve. Time to take my muscle relaxant even if I don’t think I need it because by the time I realize I need it, it’s too late.

Laundy. It’s also time to do laundry because I was lucky yesterday and today, lucky that it was on the cool side and I didn’t have to go out of the house because all that was clean was leggings and a couple of sweaters. Tomorrow there won’t be even that so laundry must be done tonight.

Speaking of laundry, a friend of mine’s Facebook post about how she hates doing laundry reminded me of a laundry story! It happened years ago, when I was the single mom of three kids. The two older ones were in high school and middle school and had to bring their P.E. clothes home to launder each week. I was also working full time and a part time job in the evenings. There was rarely enough time to catch my breath, let alone catch up on laundry. It seems I was always running behind. This one Sunday night, about ten, I had just sat down to put my feet up for a few minutes as the girls had gotten to bed. Then my son came into the room and, with a less than respectful tone, scolded my because I hadn’t washed his P.E. clothes and he needed them for the morning. It was the scolding tone that got to me. I looked at him and told him he was old enough to do his laundry (he was about 15 or 16) and from then on I wasn’t doing his laundry anymore. If he wanted clean clothes he was going to have to wash them himself. He immediately got defensive and said he didn’t know how to do it so I told him to get his laundry and I would meet him in the washroom and would show him this one time. And I did just that. I told him what to do step by step. I didn’t do it for him. I told him what he had to do. Then I told him how to work the machine and after he turned it on, I showed him how to work the dryer. Then I went to bed in protest. I was not going to have him come in later and ask for more help.

After that, he always did his own laundry if I wasn’t doing other laundry and at times, he would say I should just get some rest and he would do all the laundry, not just his. That was when I learned that it is sometimes okay to “let your kids down” to actually help them rise up in the long run.

What’s up in your neck of the woods? Do you have any “laundry” stories? Do tell.

Leaving you with last week’s “laundry picture.”

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Saturday Once More

That week flew by for me. How about you?

My reading has slowed down a  bit. I am waiting for a couple of digital library holds to come in and haven’t really decided what to read next. I have tons of unread titles on my Kindle but haven’t looked for the next title. I am reading one book which was described as a cozy mystery with lots of humor. Boy was that wrong! I haven’t found any humor in it at all. There is certainly a lot of action but it has gotten to the point where, at 37% of the text, it could have ended at least twice but hasn’t. They keep finding another bump in the storyline that keeps it going. Not sure if I will invest much more time in it.

I’ve  been watching more TV. I streamed the entire sixth season of Call the Midwife this week. I also finished streaming The West Wing for the sixth time this calendar year (all seven seasons) and all of the Gilmore Girls. I watched a few movies that I have seen before so the attention requirement wasn’t too great. I also watched all three seasons of Madam Secretary and am ready for season four to begin next week!

The current medical problem seems to be my feet. Or my foot to be exact. The doctor is assuming that it is sciatica related because it began with the sciatica (a few days after the initial attack in August) and is on the same side. However, I’m beginning to think it may be something else. When I see my primary care physician in two weeks, I am asking for a referral to a podiatrist. There is no visible injury or condition but when I put any kind of pressure on it, as in to take a step, it feels like I am stepping on something or like there is something inside of my foot (the ball of my foot) that is growing in there. Nothing is in there that the doctor or I can feel or see. And it has now spread to my toes. It is now so painful that I can’t sleep at night because the slightest touch of anything hurts. Sheet on my feet? Ow! I can’t wear regular shoes. I am having to wear slippers or my old sherpa lined Crocs. I found last night that if I put on some of those fuzzy slipper socks, the pain is not as great and I can sleep. So it’s a mystery. I’m afraid it could be nerve damage but I don’t know. And it’s hard to describe.

I am going to physical therapy for my sciatica and it is helping. I have two more visits and then we wait for authorization for more visits. I might not need too many more, I’m hoping.

Blogging. I miss doing it more often and am hoping that I will be able to concentrate for longer periods and find a comfortable sitting position for blogging. Right now I am just using my smart phone for everything and that’s not the best. I’m hoping that this week I will be able to find a comfy position/place to blog from my laptop. Wish me luck! I am also missing a lot of the Weekend Coffee Share people as Diana takes a break while she decides what to do with her blog. I also miss other people from the blogging world. Hopefully I will be able to find them again soon.

That’s it for now. I have a few errands to run on this cold, overcast, and somewhat rainy day then I am babysitting for a couple of hours. Hopefully it is only a couple of hours. She never tells me how long. I am going to have to start having her tell me how long and stick to it. Otherwise she says “awhile” and it turns into five or six hours!

Tell me what is up with you. I’m tagging this as a weekend coffee share in hopes that some of you will search for that and find me.

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Sharing Without the Coffee!

Well, no coffee chat this week. I miss the regular coffee sharers and wonder how you all are doing and what is new with you. Those coffee shares give me a “focus” for what to write about in my blog posts on days when I can’t think clearly enough to figure out what I want to write. The days have been fogging and I haven’t been able to focus. That’s a direct result of my health issues. However, I am glad to report that my incision finally cleared up and seems to have closed. Just crossing my fingers it is healed under the scab! I am still having issues remaining from my sciatica attack. I’m actually going to physical therapy for it so hopefully it will be better sooner than later.

It seems that I lost all of summer. My health issues began around Memorial Day and continued until now! That’s the entire summer season lost! I missed out on all the activities I normally do in the summer with the grandchildren. That makes me sad. But I have taken them to the park twice in one week and they spent the night with me on Thursday so we are getting back to doing more normal things now that I am feeling better. Yay!

I continue to homeschool Anderson (second grade) and I might have a fifth grader coming but her mom hasn’t been working so she hasn’t sent her yet. I also may be tutoring a third grader after school once or twice a week. I would enjoy that. I enjoy working with kids and look forward to seeing their face light up when things click into place and they understand something they haven’t understood previously.

Oh, I am also missing the Weekly Smile posts and have a lot of them I haven’t posted yet so I might just find one day a week to post a smile or two. Maybe some of you will join me.

I might also add a page on the blog for writing prompts. I’ve wanted to do that for awhile but haven’t been sure if anyone would like that. I think I might do it and just see who finds them useful. More info on that to come.

That’s about it here. What is up with you? Let me know! I really do want to know.

 

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Harvey #WeekendCoffeeShare

If we were having coffee, I might not be a very good hostess as I’ve been glued to the TV and Internet for news of hurricane Harvey which is, as I type this at 2 am on the 26th, pummeling the Texas Gulf Coast. I wish the Weather Guys were wrong. They’ve been saying that this will be the worst hurricane to hit American land in the past fifteen years. They say it is going to prove to be worse than Katrina and most of us remember how bad that was. Most of us remember how the destruction remained long after the storm died.

So grab yourself some coffee. I’m actually having decaf because I need to sleep in a bit so I can get up by seven, but if you’re game for the real thing, grab it. For a long time I resisted getting a Keurig (single cup brewer) because of the waste which was not recyclable and because it turns out to be more expensive than ground coffee. However, my daughter was gifted a new Keurig a couple of months ago and she gave me her old one. I had noticed that they now make the single cups recyclable and some can be composted. We went to Grocery Outlet (in case you don’t have those, it’s a chain that offers groceries at outlet prices and they aren’t seconds or expired, just good bargains. I found a number of different coffee choices for the Keurig that are affordable and come in recyclable cups. I only get them if the price breaks down to about forty-five cents a cup. Currently, you can choose from a medium roast grown in Kauai, some French Vanilla, salted caramel, Columbian dark roast, and a few others.

For those of you that have been following my recovery from abdominal surgery, I’m still not back to normal and it has been five weeks. The whole thing has been complicated by sciatica which has been with me for two weeks and won’t go away. It is much better than it was the first couple of days but it won’t go away. I suspect that it has a lot to do with my limited mobility and with the fact that I’m not walking as I normally do as the incision is bruised on the inside and I’m kind of limping. But it is better. I’m really tired of being sick. I can hardly wait to get to my normal state. I’m able to bend over without pain but I’m limiting the instances for another week as instructed by the doctor. So it’s better but far from good.

How many of you got to see the total solar eclipse that graced the United States last Monday? I got to see it but I was twelve miles from totality so I didn’t get to see the full thing, only about 99%. I watched from my front yard but was feeling particularly weak that day so I didn’t stay out the entire time. I just went out a few times. I want to experience totality. I really do. My niece is planning on taking her family to Argentina for the one in 2019 and has invited me. I don’t think I will be able to save the money by then but it sure would be fantastic! The next opportunity will be in 2024. I’m hoping to find a friend or family member that I can stay with in or very near the path of totality. I have lots of family in Texas (one of the reasons I’ve been glued to the reports about Harvey). And a lot of my friends, both real and virtual, live in the path so maybe someone will invite me. That would be much more doable for me.

Harvey. It hit land on Friday night. Corpus Christi was hit hard. That’s where my maternal grandmother lived all of her life. It’s where I almost moved to ten years ago. When my grandma died in 2007, my two uncles and my mom sold her house and split the money three ways. At that time, I had the cash minus about three thousand dollars. I was also looking for a place to move to as California had gotten way too expensive for me. I liked the idea of Corpus Christi because of family ties and because it’s right on the coast and I love being near the water (not in it, I don’t swim). And I loved the idea of owning my own home. However, three things kept me from doing it. First and foremost was the fear of being in a hurricane. I wouldn’t know how to prepare the house or myself for an approaching storm and I didn’t know anyone near there. Then there was the part about being far from my kids but I knew that could be remedied by air travel. The last obstacle was that I didn’t want anyone (the cousins) to think that I was trying to get the house for less than someone else would pay for it. I knew that my uncles and my mom would have agreed to let me have the house and pay them the remaining three thousand dollars within a year or two but I didn’t want anyone to say I was trying to get it for less. All in all, I guess it was a good decision not to move there but I often think what it would have been like if I had moved there.

I worry about the cousins and an elderly uncle that are all in the impacted area, namely Corpus Christi, Houston, San Antonio, Austin, and other small cities in the area. I also worry about my friends, many of whom I consider family even though I’ve never met them in person. I hope and pray that they will all come through this hurricane safely. I’ve lost too many people and I don’t want to lose anyone else.

I’ve been reading but not as much as I had been reading. I think it’s because I haven’t found anything I really want to read right now. I have a lot of books on my Kindle (like over two thousand) so I will read something from those titles. There are some newer books I would like to read but there’s no money for them right now. I have a couple of books on hold through the library as I recently discovered how I can borrow digital copies of books! Hopefully one of my holds will be available in the next couple of days. What are YOU reading?

Well, I had better get going. I have to get to sleep and then get up in less than five hours. My daughter and I are taking the boys to get a backpack with school supplies which is being gifted to low income kids by our Gleaners group. This year there’s no money for school supplies or for a backpack for Spencer (Anderson doesn’t need one) so it’s a good thing we have this giveaway available to us, even though we have to be there early and will, most likely, end up waiting in a long line. Whatever they get will be much appreciated by the boys and by their grownups. I usually have a lot of school supplies because I buy when they go on sale and clearance but I haven’t bought any in a couple of years and we’ve gone through most everything.

Oh! I forgot. On Sunday I get to see my grandson, Mati, who lives in Seattle. They are up here for a rafting trip and are going to meet up with us on Sunday before they head back to Seattle. It will be the first time all four of my grandchildren will be together in one place. Picture time!

Anyway, I’ll call it a post and finish up by asking you to hold good thoughts and prayers for those impacted by hurricane Harvey.

#WeekendCoffeeShare is a weekly blog linkup hosted by Diana at Part Time Monster Blog. Go check it out and see what else everyone is doing. Maybe you’ll want to write your own coffee share post!

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A Short Catch Up #WeekendCoffeeShare

If we were having coffee, I would try to be chipper but I would have to cut it short as I’m not in the best spirits these days.

As many of you know, doctors found a large tumor in my gall bladder seven weeks ago. Upon further examination, they’ve seen that a portion of the tumor is also in my liver and there is a good chance that it is in my colon, as well. I have had test after test and they keep coming back benign but what they see on the CT scan says it’s malignant. I didn’t understand what they meant by “what they see and how it is acting” until I read the latest CT scan report in MyChart. What they are going by is how it is effecting the tissue around it and by “gas bubbles” and other stuff I don’t really understand yet. I kind of lost it when I read that and the word “metastasized.”

I see the surgeon Monday afternoon and I am pretty sure they have my full file now, including the reports from my surgery two years ago in which they found a borderline malignancy in an ovarian cyst which was removed. I think, and I hope, that tomorrow we will have a much better picture of what is going on and a treatment plan. I’m very nervous and very anxious. I am often near tears these days but I’m one of those people that doesn’t let herself cry so it’s all inside.

Today I will spend the rest of the day with Anderson and Spencer and Maya and we’ll probably go for some ice cream because it’s National Ice Cream Day here in the U.S. and lots of places are giving out free ice cream cones! The weather is nice enough for ice cream. I haven’t taken them to the park since before the fourth of July and I usually take them every day. So maybe a park trip is in the works, too.

I’ve been spending a lot of time reading. I can’t concentrate to write or watch TV so I read. I am trying to read all of the Gabriel Allon series by Daniel Silva.  There are currently seventeen titles and I’ve read six. I had some in my Kindle library and I’ve recently discovered how to borrow digital books from the library so now I’m in business! If you’re looking for a great spy thriller, this might be the series for you.

In any case, I have been horrible about keeping up with everyone’s blogs. I read a lot of them but I read on my phone and I have fat fingers so it’s difficult to comment. I end up liking a lot of posts. I will try to be better about it; maybe I’ll start carrying my tablet with me which will work if there is Wi-Fi at the doctor’s office and other buildings.

In the meantime, if you are so inclined, I am needing a lot of virtual hugs and positive thoughts/energy these days. Please send them my way.

#WeekendCoffeeShare is hosted by Diana at Part Time Monster. Go check it out and you’ll find a lot more shares. Maybe you will want to write one.

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Humdrum – #WeeklyCoffeeShare

If we were having coffee, we could actually choose to sit inside or out. The weather isn’t too bad. The sky is a bit gray but it’s not cold. Or wet. We’re currently in the low 60’s and the air out is nice and fresh. So where would you lie to sit?

There hasn’t been much going on here, then again there has. With the better weather, the boys have been wanting to go to the park every day and I am the designated “park taker” so we’ve been visiting two and three parks a day each day this week. We take a picnic lunch or a snack with us and that’s part of the routine. They like eating at the park then playing. I have dusted off and charged my Kindle and have been taking it with me so I can read a little while they play. I read two or three pages then stop to check on the boys. It’s slow going but we’re all happy and I actually got to read a whole book this week and have started a second. I hadn’t done any reading since January so I’m glad to get back to it, even if it is not as much reading as I would like to do.

The news this week was an update on my medical tests.  The good news is that all of the samples came back as benign! Yay! However (yes, there’s a however), the doctor was really puzzled because the growth he observed was very suspicious looking. He asked if I had noticed any pain in the area. I thought it was on the left side and I said no. I have had an awful lot of pain on the right side but not the left. That’s when he said the growth is on the right side, just below my rib cage. That’s exactly where the pain has been. It has been excruciating and has been there for over a year. In the past couple of months though, it has all but disappeared. I only get in a couple of times a week and it isn’t as bad as it has been and only lasts an hour or two. So we are doing a CT scan to see if we can determine what the growth is and what is going on. At least we know it is not malignant. Now I’m waiting for the authorization to go through for the CT scan.

As for getting used to the insulin, it’s coming along. I’ve gotten good at avoiding most of the lows but still have a few which I am getting good at anticipating. I’m not great with food yet. I tend to be eating the same thing over and over because it works. However, I need to find some different things to eat that will still work well with the insulin injections. I’m hopeful that will happen soon.

Not a lot going on here. The book I read this week is excellent. It isn’t one I would normally pick up but it was highly recommended and I got it on sale. I actually had it on my Kindle for over a year before I began to read it. It’s a post-apocalyptic novel, which I don’t normally read. The Girl With All the Gifts by M. R. Carey is excellent. I do recommend it. You might be surprised, even if it isn’t a genre you would normally pick up.

What are you up to? Books? Movies? Please do tell.

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Late Night Coffee Share

If we were having coffee, you would probably want decaf or tea or something else. Me? I’ll stick with the coffee. I had half a cup today but I know I won’t sleep tonight so I am going to try to enjoy a full cup. It’s late. After ten in the evening. But it is that kind of day.

Most of you have heard about the stabbing of three men who stood up to a bigot who was spewing hateful words toward two teen girls who appeared to be Muslim. Two were killed; the third survived but has critical injuries. It came as a shock to all of us here in Portland. Yes, we’ve seen an upsurge in hate crimes in the last eight or so months, but this one hit so close to home and involved people who stood up for what is right in trying to defend the two young girls.

I took the kids to the park this afternoon then I went to the grocery store. Everything out here seemed so quiet, so somber. There was no traffic on a holiday weekend. The grocery store was almost empty. My boys and I were the only ones at the park on a beautiful summery day. There is quiet all around. People at the grocery store were talking about it but in hushed tones. I live near one of the men that was killed. Maybe that’s why this area was so quiet. It has been a tough week. On Tuesday afternoon a flagger at a road construction site in town was hit and killed by a drunk driver. He lived in the community. The community is still in shock over that then this. So senseless. So wrong.

So I can’t sleep. I’m thinking about it all. I can’t help it.

I don’t know if we’ll ever get back to “normal” or if we are so scarred by all of the hate and violence that we won’t ever be normal again. It makes me scared for my grandchildren. What will their world look like? Will they ever know peace, charity, love, and cooperation? It’s something to think about. It’s enough to make US do something. Anything; just don’t ignore it.

Anyway, I’ll try to come up with something more optimistic soon. Maybe a smile. I sure need one.

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Sugar, Sugar #WeekendCoffeeShare

Come on in for a cup of something. I haven’t managed to get up for coffee yet. I’m moving slow today. It’s a bit brisk outside and inside so I’m under blankets, but come on it and I’ll grab a blanket for you and we can chat.

When I last wrote this week, I was having a lot of trouble with the medication I was given for diabetes. It wasn’t working and I was falling apart. I ended up getting an appointment for Wednesday. Apparently, my body has stopped making its own insulin so they put me on insulin. The doctor explained that the metformin I was taking doesn’t make the body produce any insulin, it just helps the body utilize the insulin being produced. With no insulin at all, the medication wasn’t doing anything. So now I am insulin dependent. They started with the lowest does and will increase it gradually. I go again on the 19th.

This past week was a little busier than in the past few weeks, mostly because of Spencer’s 4th birthday on Monday and the doctor appointments I had. Yesterday was also the memorial for my friend Peggie. I’m glad I went. I met all her family…most of which are former in-laws and a few former co-workers. It was a wonderful testament to who she was. I will add that she was the type of person that made friends with everyone immediately. The service yesterday was attended not only by family, but also by her gardener and her mailman! I’m so lucky to have known her.

I am currently reading (not very often) My Own Words by Ruth Bader Ginsburg.  I haven’t read more than about five chapters but I like it. Have you read anything you’d recommend?  I’ve also gone through the entire six seasons of Parenthood in the past week. You? What are you watching?

Well, I am cutting it short. I have very little energy. I’m hoping that will change when they find the right dose of insulin for me.

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Stuff #WeekendCoffeeShare

Good morning! Welcome to this week’s edition of Weekend Coffee Share! It’s pretty chilly here and the skies are gloomy at the moment. Weather Guy says that will change this afternoon but who knows?!

It’s just eight here but I’ve been awake for several hours. Yesterday was an “okay but not” day. I was in a lot of pain (back pain) but was able to rest and find comfy positions. I had Anderson here all day. In fact, he spent the night on Thursday. It was low key. He watched his favorite Minecraft videos on YouTube for a while then we did some reading and some math. I am really excited to see the progress he is making with the reading. He’s beginning to decode words on his own and I can tell when he reads aloud that he is really proud of himself for reading! Yay! Math is fine. He’s in first grade but we do second grade math. We started multiplication and he’s catching on fine. He’s got his times tables learned up to the threes. I’m hoping to move him along to the fives but the end of next week. Well, next week is Spring break but because it will be very wet and soggy and because he missed a couple of days this past week, I think we’re going to try to do school for a couple of days, at least.

I managed to get an appointment at the free clinic! It’s on Tuesday afternoon. I’m very hopeful that this will be the beginning of a positive shift, health-wise. I really think the key is the diabetes. Once that is under control, it will be easier to see which symptoms stick around and what they might indicate.

There is a dad in one of my FB free/trade groups whose fifteen year old son was just diagnosed with Stage 2 Osteosarcoma a few days ago. He begins chemo on Monday then when chemo is done, he will be getting a total knee replacement followed by another round of chemo. His dad is, understandably, in shock. There are three other children, all younger, in the home so that leaves the mom and dad pretty busy. It has put me into the helping mode and I am going through the Internet to find them some local resources that might be able to help, financially and psychologically. So my mind is focused on something specific right now and that helps with my depression. I hope it helps this family, too. If you are a “prayer person,” consider sending up some prayers for Corey and his family. This has got to be a very scary thing for a fifteen year old.

I think that’s about it here. I’m not reading these days, although I am thinking of keeping the TV off so that I can do some reading. For so long I didn’t watch any TV except one show, but read a lot. I want to go back to that.

Tell me what is new with you! Just don’t tell me you have good weather. I’m not sure I can handle that! 🙂

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Down

Good morning. It has been a bit since I wrote a coffee share post or even a post. I’m not in much of a mood to write these days. Come on in and sit an maybe I can explain over a cup of coffee or tea.

Today is the last day of winter but the next ten days in our forecast here in Oregon show we are getting more of the heavy rains we have been having. Already, since October 1, we have outdone ourselves with respect to rain. We have reached our yearly total in just five and a half months. And that was last week. It has rained all week so we’re over our yearly total. It has made it a tough winter. The rain, cold, and wind have kept me indoors most of the winter. No walks out on the trails (they are all mud now). No shopping because I don’t like going in the rain and because there’s no money with which to shop. It’s depressing staying indoors. At one point, recently, I went four weeks without leaving the house. Hopefully within the next couple of weeks our rain will give us some breaks so I can get out.

Then there was the deaths of a couple of friends recently. That has me depressed, too. And I have health problems of my own. I’ve pretty much figured out that the main problem is my diabetes. No insurance equals no doctor equals no medicine. So my fasting sugar is pretty much sky high. I am constantly thirsty. Thirsty as in drinking a 22 ounce glass of water every ten minutes because I am just parched. That’s not good. That much water screws up a lot of things. Then I have problems waking up. I usually have problems sleeping now I have problems waking up. I seem to be able to sleep all day and all night. I can sleep for six to eight hours and then wake up for just a few minutes and then I can’t stay awake again. And the night sweats. When I wake up I am soaked in sweat. All symptoms of diabetes gone awry. There is a free clinic that I can apply to and if they accept me, I can get an appointment. I’m going to try to push myself to apply. I have to get some medical attention. I also have sores that won’t heal and that can also be related to the diabetes but it can also be something else. I need to get a diagnosis. And the depression itself is a symptom of the diabetes, as well. It seems that the main thing to get treated right now is the diabetes. That’s the key. If I can get that treated, then other symptoms can be sorted out.

This all sounds awful and I have not wanted to write about it because it’s so depressing but I figured I kind of owe people an explanation.

I don’t seem to be able to focus on much these days. I’m trying.

Tell me what is new with you. Give me something to concentrate on, even if only for a few minutes. I really need to pull myself up as much as I can because if I don’t, I end up falling back into the not caring about anything or anyone, not even myself. So give me something to think about. Help me pull myself up.

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