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If we were having coffee, I would be embarrassed that, for the third week in a row, you would find me on the couch in pjs.  I wouldn’t be able to move very well so you would have to, again, help yourself to coffee, tea, and maybe some fresh fruit.

This has been a heck of a week. I think I previously wrote that part of my incision got infected. That was discovered on Monday and I was put on an antibiotic. That evening when my daughter was on her way to pick me up for the pharmacy trip, my four year old grandson and I were attacked by a swarm of wasps. It took about five very long minutes to get them off of him and me. Poor little guy got about twelve stings and four stingers left in place. Once the stingers were out, he seemed to be fine. Thank God he didn’t have an allergic reaction! I got three stings. One of them still aches now, almost a full week later. Then on Thursday morning I awoke to find my pjs and sheets completely soaked. It was kind of like that scene in The Godfather where the studio head wakes up to find blood all over his bed, without the screaming, though. It turned out that the infected part of the incision had opened up and was draining what I can only describe as “yucky stuff.” Every time I moved more would come, like a stream not a slow drip.

Later that day, the doctor cut open the incision and cleaned out as much yucky stuff as he could and packed it for me. The instructions were to keep packing it at home three times a day then go back in a week so he can see if the infection was clear. My problem is that I can’t pack it myself. It’s in the breast bone area and I can’t get a good look at it, even in the mirror. So my son-in-law has been doing it but he can’t get here more than twice a day so that probably means that it will take longer to heal than if he could do it three times a day but I am grateful that he can do it at all, even though it is embarrassing to have your son-in-law look at that area of my body!

Then on Friday I woke up about two in the morning with a horrible pain in my back which quickly migrated and intensified to the point where I knew it was sciatica. I’ve had it before so I knew the pain. This time, however, it was so painful that I couldn’t move even an inch without the pain being at screaming level and I do have a very high thresh hold for pain but this was pure agony. I live alone so I suffered here by myself, hoping it would get better but by the mid afternoon I called my primary care physician’s office. Unfortunately the office was closed (two hours earlier than usual). The on call doctor could only advise that I go to Urgent Care. By the time I could get a ride over to Urgent Care, the pain had intensified to the point where I was hyperventilating from the pain.

At Urgent Care, I got a prescription for a muscle relaxant. I already had pain pills from before which I had been taking throughout the day. There were other things they might have been able to do but couldn’t because I am diabetic (can’t take steroid) and post operative so that kind of tied the doctor’s hands. Luckily, the muscle relaxant worked and has continued to work through the weekend. The pain is there but it is very manageable, although I have had short periods of it being almost unbearable. The trick is to keep taking the muscle relaxant, I think. I’ll have to make a trip to my primary care physician on Monday so I can get more of the muscle relaxant as the Urgent Care doctor only gave me enough through the weekend. So hopefully I can get someone to take me.

Other than that, I am very sore from the incision that had to be opened up. That means that at times I am having to ambulate with two canes, one in each hand. I’m pretty much staying in bed. Thank goodness I have lots of books loaded on my Kindle and I can stream stuff on TV as long as I don’t lose track of the remotes! Last night I tried to get up and do a little bit of tidying up, clearing my bedside tray and fixing something to eat. I think that activity is what made the sciatica flare up overnight. I guess today I try not to do as much, not that I did much, but you know!

So how have you been? I hope you are all well and not having any pain or any kind of medical problems. It really isn’t fun. Let me know what has been on your reading list this week. Have you watched anything interesting? Have been outdoors much? Please share with this girl that has not been able to leave the house other than to the doctor and urgent care. Let me live vicariously through you! Tell me something good!

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If we were having coffee, I would try to be chipper but I would have to cut it short as I’m not in the best spirits these days.

As many of you know, doctors found a large tumor in my gall bladder seven weeks ago. Upon further examination, they’ve seen that a portion of the tumor is also in my liver and there is a good chance that it is in my colon, as well. I have had test after test and they keep coming back benign but what they see on the CT scan says it’s malignant. I didn’t understand what they meant by “what they see and how it is acting” until I read the latest CT scan report in MyChart. What they are going by is how it is effecting the tissue around it and by “gas bubbles” and other stuff I don’t really understand yet. I kind of lost it when I read that and the word “metastasized.”

I see the surgeon Monday afternoon and I am pretty sure they have my full file now, including the reports from my surgery two years ago in which they found a borderline malignancy in an ovarian cyst which was removed. I think, and I hope, that tomorrow we will have a much better picture of what is going on and a treatment plan. I’m very nervous and very anxious. I am often near tears these days but I’m one of those people that doesn’t let herself cry so it’s all inside.

Today I will spend the rest of the day with Anderson and Spencer and Maya and we’ll probably go for some ice cream because it’s National Ice Cream Day here in the U.S. and lots of places are giving out free ice cream cones! The weather is nice enough for ice cream. I haven’t taken them to the park since before the fourth of July and I usually take them every day. So maybe a park trip is in the works, too.

I’ve been spending a lot of time reading. I can’t concentrate to write or watch TV so I read. I am trying to read all of the Gabriel Allon series by Daniel Silva.  There are currently seventeen titles and I’ve read six. I had some in my Kindle library and I’ve recently discovered how to borrow digital books from the library so now I’m in business! If you’re looking for a great spy thriller, this might be the series for you.

In any case, I have been horrible about keeping up with everyone’s blogs. I read a lot of them but I read on my phone and I have fat fingers so it’s difficult to comment. I end up liking a lot of posts. I will try to be better about it; maybe I’ll start carrying my tablet with me which will work if there is Wi-Fi at the doctor’s office and other buildings.

In the meantime, if you are so inclined, I am needing a lot of virtual hugs and positive thoughts/energy these days. Please send them my way.

#WeekendCoffeeShare is hosted by Diana at Part Time Monster. Go check it out and you’ll find a lot more shares. Maybe you will want to write one.

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Today’s the day. I leave for the hospital in about 5 hours and will be there most  of the day. They said my ride could get me around three or four. Then the waiting begins once again. I see the oncologist in a week, on  the tenth. Hopefully we’ll get a treatment plan then.  

The stress of the last couple of weeks is messing with my diabetes, too. Not fun. 

Anyway, if you happen to think of me today, send telepathic hugs. They are much needed. 

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If we were having coffee, we would definitely be inside. It has been very wet for the last couple of days. Not cold. Just very wet. We could sit at the table in the dining room and enjoy a chat while we watch the rain. And listen to it. I love the sound of the rain.

I would also tell you about Anderson. You may have read in my Tough Days post a few days ago, about him knocking his teeth out at the park and the aftermath. On Thursday he was very ill. That’s what happens when you don’t eat or drink anything for several days! Finally, on Friday, we reminded him about how his mom had to go to the hospital a few weeks ago because she couldn’t hold anything down and got sick. They had to hook her up to an IV to re-hydrate her. That convinced him to try to eat. He ate a mashed up banana and had a cup of apple juice. Later in the day, he wanted McDonald’s chicken nuggets so we took him but we had to cut everything up into tiny pieces…tiny fries…tiny chicken nuggets. He’s afraid to bite but he’ll chew. So he’s much better now but not quite back to himself just yet.

Spencer started preschool on Tuesday. It was the first day and only half the class went that day with the other half going on Wednesday. The whole class was supposed to be there on Thursday but we couldn’t take him because there was a downed power line across the entrance to the mobile home park so they were not letting anyone in or out of the driveway. So he missed school. The preschool is a Monday through Thursday program so his second day will be tomorrow. He liked it so I don’t think we’ll have a problem getting him to go.

I got this neat idea yesterday! I got on Facebook and offered my friends a free Tarot reading so I can get some practice. I’ve read the Tarot for over thirty years but am out of practice so I figured I would offer free readings for the next couple of weeks so I can practice. Then after that, I can start charging for them. That should help with a little bit of money coming in. I’m excited about it. I love the Tarot so this will be fun and, hopefully, a bit profitable. I have kept up with the rent but I haven’t had grocery money since July so I have been relying on what my daughter sends my way…mostly fruits and vegetables.  It would be nice to be able to afford a few groceries…like maybe something with protein in it. If any of you want a free reading and you’re one of my regular readers, let me know in the comments or sidebar comment box. I’m doing them for free for just a couple of weeks before I start charging.

I watched The Princess Bride the other night because I want to participate in the linkup next weekend. I will watch it again at least once more before I write a blog post about it.  I am also binge watching Gilmore Girls because I want to get through all seven seasons before the revival movies come on Netflix on November 25th. I’m on season 3 right now. While watching the shows, I keep getting flooded with memories of my own about some of the events on the show. I think I am going to start writing them up for blog posts or maybe a collection of memoir pieces inspired by watching the show. We’ll see if anything comes of it.

My biggest disappointment this weekend is that I had to postpone my trip to see my grandson in Seattle. I have something going on with my stomach and Anderson was vomiting and Tina wasn’t feeling well so I didn’t want to take the chance that I might be contagious and expose the baby or my son and daughter in law to any kind of bug I might have so I didn’t go. I’m waiting to hear from my son about rescheduling a visit. Crossing my fingers it is soon!

So what about YOU?  Reading? Watching? Writing? Weather?  Please do tell!

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A little bit of brightness we found on our walk the other day, in the middle of an industrial park!

 

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My hair is very gray. I usually dye it about every three months. I do it myself, at home. I found a dye recently, well less than a year ago, that is much better than what I was using. It is a foam in product that is much easier to apply and to see where you have applied it to and where there is no product, which means that you don’t have those “untouched” spots that translate into dyed dark hair (deepest brown is my natural color) with a lot of gray peeking in here and there. At $10 an application, it is more than twice what I pay for the other stuff that leaves gray in but it is well worth it. Plus it leaves my hair conditioned and feeling great!

I haven’t dyed my hair since Thanksgiving. That means that it is almost completely gray all over, down to my shoulders where there is still some of the dark coloring left down to my mid-back. I toyed with the idea of letting it go completely gray but I’m not ready for that. My daughter agreed that it’s not time yet. You see, I’m 59 years old. With my gray hair I look like I am well into my 60’s. With it dyed, I look late 40’s. No brainer. I decided to dye it.

Today is my grandson’s last day of pre school. He begins kindergarten in September. There will be a little presentation of certificates and pictures. I decided that today I was taking myself back. It has been a really rough three months and I am ready to start being myself again. So I rummaged through the cupboards looking for the good dye package but didn’t find any. However, I did find the old stuff that doesn’t cover the gray well. It was after midnight so I decided I would use the yucky stuff just this one last time. Maybe I should have waited until this morning or gone out at midnight. When I washed it out and dried my hair, I could definitely see a lot of gray. It seems that I left a lot untouched just below both temples. Then I realized that I only got the surface so when it is moved slightly out of the way, all the gray is underneath!

Oh well! It will have to do. It will wash out in less than a month anyway and by then I will have gotten to the store for the better stuff. I think I’ll stock up on it.

Then came the clothes. At about 75 pounds lighter than I was in April, nothing fits. I have two pair of leggings that fit loose but well enough to wear. I also have two pair of jeans that fit kind of baggy but they don’t fall down! So that’s what I have been wearing around the house. To go out though, I had my daughter take me to the store where I found two pair of nicer pants, not leggings and not jeans, that sort of fit. They were on clearance and then half of the clearance so I paid about $16 for the two pair. I’m wearing the dark blue ones today. The tops are harder to find so I dug through boxes of clothes that never made it to the Goodwill donation center, clothes that were too small when I was so much bigger. I found a few that looked less larger than others and gave them a fresh washing. One in particular is kind of gathered with elastic at the sides, creating a waist. That one is not huge on me. It’s a size or two too big but it doesn’t look like I’m a two year old playing dress-up in my mommy’s clothes. So I’m set. I’m stepping out! It’s only to my grandson’s pre school graduation but it means a lot to me.

I’m taking myself back. I’m ready to. My mind is anyway. My body isn’t entirely ready and I will have to remember to not over do things but I’m not waiting. I’m coming out, not as the sickly shell of who I used to be, but as the person that is looking forward to so much more than doctor’s appointments and medicines and fear of the cancer recurring. I’m not thinking of that today. Today is about an ending and a beginning.

I’m ready.

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Medical Update

I would not normally do this but so many if you have sent inquiries so I’ll post an update. 

First, if you are squeamish, don’t read this, please.

Because the pain went away, I figured I was fine but in the past two days my skin is yellow tinned, my pee is brown, and yesterday my poop turned green. Not good. No pain this time but I’m also very weak and I can’t eat anything.

So I’m sitting in the clinic waiting for my appointment which is not for another hour. The Dr. came out between patients and took my vitals and medical history. So far, my pulse is quite elevated (104), my heart rate is elevated and so is my blood pressure. And after asking me a lit if questions I remembered that I had hepatitis in college (in the early 70’s). 

Now I sit and wait. They’re going to do some lab work.  But at least I came in.  I’m not good at taking care of myself. I think if everyone else first but I need to do this for me, now.

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