Today I’m deviating slightly from my A to Z theme of memories to share something that happened to me a couple of weeks ago.
As most of my Readers and Followers know, at the end of March I ended up in the ER and then was admitted to the hospital for a couple of days. I was very nervous and scared. Each doctor that came in to see me had a different diagnosis, most of them quite serious. Finally, I was at the point where I was so scared that I was shivering and shaking with fear. I told myself that I needed to calm down so I took a deep breath and closed my eyes and took another deep breath. That’s when it happened. Upon closing my eyes, I saw a shower of tiny white lights coming toward me from the distance. It lasted only two or three seconds then I saw a grayish shadow figure in all the blackness. It was approaching me with open arms. As it got to the bed, the figure, I think it was a woman, sat at my side. For some reason I got the feeling that it was my grandmother and I wasn’t scared anymore. Then more figures began to appear, approaching me slowly and coming to my side. I even felt a depression on the bed as one of the figures sat at my side. The shadow figures remained with me for more than five minutes then I didn’t see them or feel them anymore. I opened my eyes and I could feel nothing but peace and a sense that I was going to be okay. I felt calm. No more shivering. No shallow breathing. Just peace.
I know I wasn’t asleep. I could hear noises in the hall and the nurses going from room to room while the shadow figures were with me. And when I opened my eyes, I didn’t have the feeling that I was waking. I just felt that I was opening my eyes.
Whatever it was, the memory of those shadow figures and the calmness I felt when they were with me has come to me several times over the last couple of weeks, not the shadow figures, just the calmness and peacefulness. So as I head to the hospital later this morning for my afternoon surgery, I’m choosing to take my shadow figures with me along with the peaceful, calm feeling.
I’ll see you on the flip side!