Good morning. It has been a bit since I wrote a coffee share post or even a post. I’m not in much of a mood to write these days. Come on in and sit an maybe I can explain over a cup of coffee or tea.
Today is the last day of winter but the next ten days in our forecast here in Oregon show we are getting more of the heavy rains we have been having. Already, since October 1, we have outdone ourselves with respect to rain. We have reached our yearly total in just five and a half months. And that was last week. It has rained all week so we’re over our yearly total. It has made it a tough winter. The rain, cold, and wind have kept me indoors most of the winter. No walks out on the trails (they are all mud now). No shopping because I don’t like going in the rain and because there’s no money with which to shop. It’s depressing staying indoors. At one point, recently, I went four weeks without leaving the house. Hopefully within the next couple of weeks our rain will give us some breaks so I can get out.
Then there was the deaths of a couple of friends recently. That has me depressed, too. And I have health problems of my own. I’ve pretty much figured out that the main problem is my diabetes. No insurance equals no doctor equals no medicine. So my fasting sugar is pretty much sky high. I am constantly thirsty. Thirsty as in drinking a 22 ounce glass of water every ten minutes because I am just parched. That’s not good. That much water screws up a lot of things. Then I have problems waking up. I usually have problems sleeping now I have problems waking up. I seem to be able to sleep all day and all night. I can sleep for six to eight hours and then wake up for just a few minutes and then I can’t stay awake again. And the night sweats. When I wake up I am soaked in sweat. All symptoms of diabetes gone awry. There is a free clinic that I can apply to and if they accept me, I can get an appointment. I’m going to try to push myself to apply. I have to get some medical attention. I also have sores that won’t heal and that can also be related to the diabetes but it can also be something else. I need to get a diagnosis. And the depression itself is a symptom of the diabetes, as well. It seems that the main thing to get treated right now is the diabetes. That’s the key. If I can get that treated, then other symptoms can be sorted out.
This all sounds awful and I have not wanted to write about it because it’s so depressing but I figured I kind of owe people an explanation.
I don’t seem to be able to focus on much these days. I’m trying.
Tell me what is new with you. Give me something to concentrate on, even if only for a few minutes. I really need to pull myself up as much as I can because if I don’t, I end up falling back into the not caring about anything or anyone, not even myself. So give me something to think about. Help me pull myself up.
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I’m so sorry to hear of your health worries. I hope you are able to push yourself to take that first step because I miss hearing about your adventures with your grandsons and your travels to visit your son and his daughter. They all depend on you and you owe it to them and mostly to yourself to feel your best again.
Here in NJ we have been struggling with the weather too. I get very down during the cold months as well and have been pushing to make my self accomplish things. Doing something creative sometimes helps. Drawing or sewing or even writing wakes up different parts of the brain and takes my mind off the endless cold! Look for the beauty around you and recreate it.
Take care.
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Thank you, Nancy. Those little ones are what keep me going.
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You do need to find a way to get medical attention. I know: you understand all of that, what is happening, what you need to do and such, but one of the symptoms is depression, which sucks up all motivation. Not sure what I can say to help there… And you should try to find a way to walk, even if it is going to a mall and walking around for a while, just to get the blood flowing – it will help, even help lift your mood.
The weather here has been pretty nasty. We had such a mild late January and February, the warmest on record, and then it all went away in March. March has been harsh – cold, very cold and colder still, and now all of the snow. But, it got above freezing for the second time yesterday! And will again later today, if only briefly – perhaps the end is in sight!
Take care!
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I went on an stand with my daughter and when she was done, Spencer wanted to go to the mall. It was almost closing time so it wasn’t crowded. He just wanted to walk from one place to another. I walked with them but I found that I couldn’t walk more than 4 or 5 minutes before I needed to sit. I’m not sure what that’s about. I was just in a lot of pain. I guessed that’s one more thing to get checked out. Thank you, Trent.
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I hope it was just not being used to walking much for a while. Anyway, I hope you get in to get check out soon! Stay well.
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Please push yourself to apply at the free clinic. As you already know, diabetes is a terrible disease and requires constant attention. I hope things soon improve for you.
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Thank you.
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You can do it.
Be well.
Wishing you peace.
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Thank you.
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Corina I am sorry to hear of your health problems- will it help at all to eat certain foods- to keep your blood sugar at some level that is safe? I do hope you can go to the clinic and be evaluated. Here, we had a big snowstorm last week that left a bit more than a foot of snow. The weather is like February with all sign of spring buried under snow. Spring and brighter weather where you are would help you too- endless rain is hard to take. Thinking of you and hoping you will be able to resolve your health issues soon
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I’ve managed to keep diabetes under control for many years. I haven’t changed my eating habits, yet is now out of control so that indicated there’s something changed in how my body is working. Could be age. Could be that there’s something else going on that is making this worse.
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Corina are you able to apply for medicaid if you have no income right now?
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Yes. That’s in the works but it takes 6 to 9 months for approval. The free clinic is my best bet until I get approved for the Oregon Health Plan. I’m calling them as soon as they open and hoping it will only take a week or two for approval.
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I got an appointment for a week from tomorrow!!!
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Oh I am so glad to hear that Corina! ❤
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Your health problems are similar to mine. I am lucky as I have good health insurance but the doctors don’t know for sure if what is the problem. Now they are thinking aspirin poisoning. Many diabetics are also Gluten Intolerance. I want to drink a lot. May we both get well. Think Positive!
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Yes, may we both get back into good health soon.
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Corina, I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve not been well and I hope you will find the energy and available services to get medical attention as soon as possible.
Good luck and best wishes that you return to stable health again soon.
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Thank you, Joanne.
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Oh dear Corina. I am so sorry you are going through all this stuff. I have to agree with Trent’s advice. So hope you can follow it!
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Thank you, Dale.
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God bless you! You are dealing with a lot at once. The diabetes issues have me really worried! I find it hard to believe there is not anywhere you can turn to in your area for help at least with you diabetes. County health clinic, diabetes foundation. I do know from experience that depression can make you want to sleep your life away. It’s like pastor was saying this evening “I’m here to help, to be there for you, but I can’t if you don’t let me know what is going on.” You’ve got to reach out, reach out to family, friends, neighbors, church, etc. and let them know you need a hand, a friend, some help.
Barbara in Caneyhead from
Life & Faith in Caneyhead
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Thank you , Barbara. The county clinic charges $200 for the doctor visit them lab written is extra and they don’t bill you. You have to pay when services are rendered. The free clinic is run by retired doctors and doctors who give their time. I have to wait for an appointment once they verify my eligibility. But I should qualify. Not sure how long the wait will be but I think that’s my only choice.
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Have you considered a GoFundMe thing-y to raise money for needed medicine? I would be happy to share it in next week’s Coffee Share. Let me know if there’s anything at all I can do to help!
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Thank you. I know once I get a prescription, I can get generic for about 4 dollars a month and I think the free clinic has resources for a meter and test strips. The key is the prescription. Other health issues will probably wait till I’m approved for the state health insurance. If there is any emergency they speed up the authorization process. Not looking forward to any emergencies, though.
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Very sorry to hear of your difficulties. Winter can be very depressing… and health care can be dangerous. I say that because we have socialized medicine here. I myself go to doctors only when I feel I’m facing a life or death situation. But I’ve heard of many cases where people have been tempted to get more medical attention than they really need (quite tempting when it costs next to nothing). The problem is that the doctors don’t always find the cause of what’s wrong, and once they start exploring, it can lead to disaster. A friend of mine recently went through a major operation only to discover later that it was unnecessary. And the recovery seems very slow and uncomfortable… In any case, spring will soon show its signs. Wishing you better health and lighter spirits.
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Thank you, Shimon. I did manage to get an appointment, for next week, at the free clinic so I feel more hopeful now.
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Diabetes is terrible. Most of my family has it, so I watch myself, try to balance my proteins and carbs. No insurance is rough too, I’ve been in that boat for four years, my thoughts, prayers, and good wishes are with you.
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